Thursday, 16 December 2010 05:49
My current to-do list is three pages long with four big projects circled in red at the top with giant deadlines next to them. All of those deadlines fall today, tomorrow, or Friday.
I am overwhelmed and unmotivated. I cannot seem to create even when I try and I am SO FAR BEHIND that I feel like my only hope it to turn off my computer and just cry, hoping my fairy godmother will hear me and wave her magic wand and VOILA! my work will appear, completed, on my desktop.
Tonight I want to do anything but work. I want to listen to good music and curl up to read the stack of books I checked out from the library and DO NOT WANT TO RETURN without reading. I want to get all Christmas-y and decorate and wrap presents but first I have to buy them and my to-do list is wrought with Christmas items and none of them are checked off, not one.
Ever feel like just throwing in the towel? Ever feel like admitting defeat?
Sometimes it is most courageous to take the first step. Sometimes it is most courageous to cross the finish line. Sometimes it is most courageous to abandon the path all together, sit down in the woods and make a picnic lunch and just breathe deeply.
I think I'll feel stronger after that.
